I wish you could know how it feels to run with all your heart and lose horribly...
...that is how I felt...
After not being selected for AI Director, I felt I had put all my heart and failed horribly...
... and of course this feeling is terrible... because it feels you're empty, cause you gave all your heart, you gave all yourself, you dedicated entirely to something... that didn't work out!
So the feeling is of lost, of not having a floor to step... I felt there was a big hole under my feet, and I was just falling there...
A feeling of not knowing where to go and if it's worth going... if it's worth putting all the heart again, because I may fail again... and it will hurt again...
But then, thinking about this "heart" stuff I realized I am happy that I put all my heart... because I don't like things that are partially done... I don't like living "half-heartedly"... I like to live life with intensity, putting my heart in everything I do...
It may hurt... but I'd rather put all the heart and try than think later on "what if...?"
If I wouldn't try because it may hurt, I would miss the possibility of the greatness... I would miss life!
So now, for the ones that are asking me about my next steps...
...I am searching for something that is worth putting my heart again! :)
After not being selected for AI Director, I felt I had put all my heart and failed horribly...
... and of course this feeling is terrible... because it feels you're empty, cause you gave all your heart, you gave all yourself, you dedicated entirely to something... that didn't work out!
So the feeling is of lost, of not having a floor to step... I felt there was a big hole under my feet, and I was just falling there...
A feeling of not knowing where to go and if it's worth going... if it's worth putting all the heart again, because I may fail again... and it will hurt again...
But then, thinking about this "heart" stuff I realized I am happy that I put all my heart... because I don't like things that are partially done... I don't like living "half-heartedly"... I like to live life with intensity, putting my heart in everything I do...
It may hurt... but I'd rather put all the heart and try than think later on "what if...?"
If I wouldn't try because it may hurt, I would miss the possibility of the greatness... I would miss life!
So now, for the ones that are asking me about my next steps...
...I am searching for something that is worth putting my heart again! :)
tenho certeza q tu vai encontrar! ;)
mana, acho q a gente não se fala decentemente até lá, então... boa viagem!!! aproveita mto o XPro e a Rússia! to com inveja e saudades! :(
bjão!